When your blog doesn't wanna hear it

Hi blog, it's been a while. We have a difficult relationship you and I. It's not even that we do not get along. It is just that we do not have time for each other. We have lost the spark. The honeymoon is long over and we are left...

How have you been? Neglected?  Ooh. That's by me, right?  I do tend to do that. Neglect. Things. People...

Time, time, time, time so bloody deceiving. You can seem to have your whole life ahead of you one minute and it's all gone the next. Tomorrow always seems ready to take up the work that was meant for today, until tomorrow becomes today. Time, you bloody bastard. You are a predator. Preying on people who know not of your wickedness.

I'm a soul in distress. I don't know. I'm a soul. I guess. I wish you could help me. Listening isn't...what I want right now. I want everything to be fine. Could you, I don't know...do that. Make everything better/fine?

It's been a while since I have written to you and yet I come here bearing gifts :-) well wrapped problems. Bear with me. Now you know how God feels. I'm not implying that, you are...God.

I'm a soul...in a lot of distress dear Blog. Where do I go to fix it. My life. To fix my life. Where do I go to fix my life?

God should have given us a timeline for our lives. Timeline written in stone like the Commandments. Specific timelines that we all know of. Not what He is doing right now. Not Him knowing what is going to happen and we ...we walking around groping in the dark.

Why do you do that? Why? No, not you blog. God. Why does God do this to us?

Who are you talking to?

I'm talking to you, my blog?

Are you sure, because I'm not God?

(Slightly irritated) I know, it's just that some questions should be directed to him. I'm having a conversation with two people. You and God... what I can't do that? You are going to limit the number of people I talk to now? What's with you?

I'm cranky too.

You're cranky?

Yes.

You don't talk to me for months and then you come with a conversation you should clearly be having with someone else.  Someone who lives on the 100th floor.

:-)

Don't emoji me.

No. I mean. (Sigh!) You have never had a conversations with two people before?

Have you given someone else your login details?

(Adamantly) No!

Then no I haven't.

(murmurs) Sassy mouth.

What?

Nothing, nothing.

Carry on.

Lost my trail of thought.

So, until next year then?

Goodness, could you give me a minute to gather my thoughts? I've really missed you. :-)

Nah!

What?

Nah I'm not being won over. (Right eyebrow raised), just go on about your blogging.

 It's cool. I'm good. If I can't stand it anymore I will get on my knees.

TIPPING THE SCALE

Courtesy of kimbeach.com

So I have been trying to lose weight like every other woman. Even when am stuffing my face with chocolate muffin I am still trying. Others may consider that moment a fail but I prefer to shut up my cravings by chocking it with a chocolate muffin rather than hushing it with a carrot and have it nag me for eternity.

So...losing weight right...then I begin to ask myself what will be the perfect weight? Because, I don't want to look like a clothes hanger. So what is the perfect weight? I don't know. I start to think; I wasn't happy at 67kg and am not happy at 60 and I probably won't be happy at 50, kgs that is. So I quit my diet.

Another fail, right? Wrong...well maybe...I just chose to pick a different diet. 

Stop eating when you are full and damn it you know that feeling. Distract your mind with other activities like filling in a crossword puzzle or sudoku so you kill time before lunch. Stick to three proper meals a day; breakfast, lunch and supper so that your mind does not justify that chocolate muffin, packet of biscuits, chevda and crisps with the idea 'well you didn't eat lunch.' When you fall hungry between meals feed on fruits and nuts first. When the hunger is gone you are less likely to junk. They are just as filling and everything tastes fantastic when you are hungry anyway. Drink lots of water. Water is filling as well. Finally get some exercise. Walk, run, jump, stretch...just do something and at least three times a week.

Another unconventional thing I do is to watch programs like 'fat doctor' or 'the biggest loser'. It may sound cruel but those stories are the best motivators to ensure you don't let things get that bad. By the way, don't watch these programs as you eat. Once my brunch nearly saw the sun.

You see I don't want to be controlled by the whole weight thing. It is a lifestyle after all, living healthy. Because in essence we just want to feel like we look good with our clothes on and off. But all of it is vanity.

I just hear some of the stories of how people try to shed weight and it is ridiculous and no am never trying raw fish. I don't care even if it is said to be 'exotic'. You give me fish and I will pick up fresh fry.

It never is about losing weight. It is about finding a system that works for you so that you include all that is good for you in your life and avoiding all that is bad without making yourself unhappy in the process. That's what I think anyway, what do I know...am no expert.

Generation Y ideal

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There was a day in one of my classes when this girl was arguing with the rest of the class about age. Well, it was her and her friend. The thing is we were saying that no one will give you a million dollar business deal to handle when you are in your twenties and the ink hasn't yet dried on your certificate. What we meant is that wisdom and experience comes with age but she wouldn't let up. She thought that we were looking down on ourselves. I wanted to argue but I procrastinated my comments until the argument ended. Fine, I just didn't feel like arguing. I don't know, she was hopeful and mind-numbing naive in my view.

The whole time she would defend her theory I just remembered this article I read on facebook...yes facebook; no typing error. Some link. It was stating the reasons why generation Y will be disappointed and it basically said that we live our lives with some type of entitlement. When we were young we were told that we are special and we can be and do anything we want if we put our minds to it. So we all think that we will end up being C.E.Os and wealthy. But, that's not reality, some will be managers, simple ordinary employees and some blue collar job workers and many won't be rich.  Now am a generation Y member so I also think that I won't be a blue collar worker. I'll start as an ordinary employee and work my way to the top. However am not delusional. Life has persistently shown me that things will never happen in the exact same way I envisioned it and most times not at all. For that reason I decided to not be rigid in my dreaming. If it's God's will for me to end up...wherever I end up and am happy even though am not successful according to society's standards then I will accept my fate.

 In primary school some teacher kept on stressing on how we need to leave a legacy like Michael Jackson, Steve Jobs, Bill gates, Oprah, Jerry Springer yes Jerry Springer, Obama as well...how could I forget Obama, yawa! Anyway, I remember thinking that the world has billions of people living in it every year at one given time and not everyone has a legacy. It is just not probable. I reached university and one of my lecturers said lets be reasonable. Some of you will score A in my class most B and C and a few D. It sounded bad but he was stating the truth. Someone has to be first and someone has to be last. Someone has to be the one loaning banks money and someone has to be the one accepting aid from NGO's. It is just sad reality, not negativity.

I do believe that if you work hard and smart and do your level best and not con anyone God will reward you with success. But, to think that just because you are hardworking then everything will go your way and people will just call you for opportunities to prove yourself is naive. Beyonce herself said that sometimes you work hard and still lose. I wouldn't give you that business deal because am sure when you mess up, you'll expect me to understand that you are human and things go wrong. However, experienced people know that when it comes to millions no one thinks mistake but sabotage.