DIEING TO LIVE

Life is difficult and sometimes painful and worthless, in your life you go through a lot of things and the negative experiences are the ones that last. If you compare notes with other people you will realize that life experiences are similar with small important differences. These small differences are ignorable but are what makes each person an individual. In that case life is a script, same script different casts. I wonder why people want to live when they die or are dieing? How many times have you said this is worse than death? I wish the ground could swallow me whole? Huh?
I think my writings are somewhat of a deep thought, writing situations that people go through that I have no idea about. Okay that is not entirely true I don’t experience physically but understand emotionally. I just try to attach a valid believable reason to situations.
Many people say that the dead wish they were alive, maybe because that right to live was taken away from them or it expired without notice. I f someone died and went to hell, he would wish to live for one more minute to set things right. If someone died and went to heaven, he would wish to live another day to finish his work on earth or to enjoy the love of his family and friends.
A person involved in a fatal accident, like a woman sitting in a plane that is about to crash or a man on death row or a person dying of a terminal illness normally have their lives flash before them. It is not the dramatic flash but it happens depending on the amount of time you have. The less time you have, the less flashes you get and the more time the more flashes. You wake up one morning and you remember the little girl you bullied when you were 5 years old and you rush to make peace. Now if you have a near death experience and you don’t get a flash don’t panic. Sometimes you don’t get flashes and there those who when they are dying will have only one thing in their mind, whatever that maybe, i mean it could i wish i ate.
People who have little time to live always say I wish I had more time and by spending time wishing they are actually wasting the little time they have feeling denied but then again it is hard to live knowing when you are going to die. Why are humans programmed to fear the end, an end, any end? To tell you the truth, I think it is because humans realize that there is no end. That is, when one thing ends another begins and you never know if its going to be good and short or bad and long. Forever does not sound sexy and sweet for you love birds when you realize just how long forever is. I also think it’s because you realize that you are alone, in life and in death. A Christian would say that you wouldn’t feel this way if you had Christ.......Christians!!!
When you are not faced by a major problem the minor ones are magnified i.e. all of a sudden your life is unbearable because your clothes are not as fashionable as your friend but when you are dying or are dead you won’t even notice. I guess it is hard to appreciate the little things on a normal day, like if a car splashes water on you on a rainy day, at least it didn’t run you over.
95% of us do not know what life is. Most of us do not know what living is all about. Many of us will die without knowing and regret will eat away at our heart the way wounds eat away at our flesh but do not fear I just might join you.
I don’t understand any of this, or maybe I do. I mean don’t they say that humans use only a certain fraction of their brain. The Bible says that if you try and save your life then you will lose it and if you lose it then you will save it. I think you can’t agree with this unless your life has a purpose bigger than yourself or you realize that your life is temporary and given. So for the many of you who won’t take this piece of holy advice, someone else also said that you only begin to live after you have survived death and this guy just happened to be a serial killer.
The media gives us a certain image of how life is meant to be and yes a good life is meant to be a certain way and feel a certain way and when it is right you will know because it will feel right for you.